Now I know I will work on it.

I have finally discovered what type of photographer I want to be ‘Documentary’

I want to travel the world and explore the different cultures it has to offer.

I want to capture events that will go down in history both local and far away.

I want to be like the photographers of Magnum and maybe someday I will be one of them.

That’s the goal. That’s the dream.

The End

She sleeps with one eye open,
To see him return,
You'd think since the first time she caught him,
He would have learned,
That to cheat for the thrill,
Is not the best choice,
To keep going for the kill,
And to not ignore her tempting voice.
I guess he likes danger,
And doesn't care about the cost,
Maybe he should have been wiser,
And it wouldn't have been he who had lost.
Now he sleeps with both eyes open,
In hope she will come back,
The words ' i'm sorry' had been spoken,
But nothing can fix the crack,
In the centre of her heart,
She's gone forever,
He's left behind in the dark,
She walked away from her careless lover.
It's over now,
Done and dusted,
She took her bow,
cause he could never be trusted.

Dear People of the World

I can officially say I am going through my R&B/Hip Hop phase again, i'm not surprised cause I do this every year atleast once :)

What started it off was a documentry on how Hip Hop changed the world on channel 4. They were talking about Lauryn Hill and how the album 'The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill' helped her become one of the best female rappers that the hip hop genre had witnessed. I then realised that some of the songs that I associate the most with my childhood along with the brit pop and old school cheese were the lyrical workings of Lauryn Hill and The Fugees.

That's all i really wanted to say, just thought i'd warn you because I may post a few hip hop/r&b related videos or words :)

TTFNXX

Just Plain rude

Okay so I have come to the conclusion that wind is not only annoyingly stupid but it's rude to. I was working yesterday and the wind was so bad it was messing up my scales making it almost impossible to way boxes in. Aswell as that the roof of the mule keep moving in the wind, it had an empty box on the top of it ( bad combination right) the box was blow in to the air and landed on my head> Just Plain Rude.

"Everyone wants happiness

No one wants pain

But you can't get a rainbow

without a little rain"

I just an email from my "Twin" as I like to call her, she's not actually related in anyway but we are so similar in things we like and how we act you would think we were. Anyway so yeah I just got an email from her and at the end was this quote, I think it relates to life perfectly. Everyone goes through pain granted some more than others but in the end things work out even if it only lasts for a day, an hour or a maybe only couple if minutes some light shines through the rain clouds and highlights the the colours. Okay so we may not find the gold at the end of the rainbow but if we did what would we do next, life is about searching for the gold not having it to begin with.

Thank you for taking the minutes out of your life you could have spent doing other things or even looking for the gold, insted you read this, my mind overflow.

TTFNXX

Full House

So my sister has moved back in to the family house not fully but almost, due to the fact she broke up with her boyfriend this morning. They were living together just down the road so she doesn't have to move far. She said she didn't feel the same way about him and it wasn't fair to string him along; she said she has been thinking about this for 6 months; I know I know that is a long time but I think she thought her feelings would change back again. She decided to call it a day when she got signs of him maybe proposing which would just be wrong and end up with more pain. I did't know what to do this morning when she came in the kitchen...

Me: aren't you suppose to be at work.
Sis: (knods)
Me: why aren't you?
Sis: ( bursting in to tears) me and russel broke up

Okay so when I see anyone of my family or friends cry and can't help but break down to, I don;t know if this makes me compassionate or just weak. I think maybe cause I like to write and have an over active imagination that I relate and put myself in to that persons position so I can understand what they are feeling; maybe I live my life experiences through everyone else.

It's wierd having both of my sisters in the house cause I have been so used to either being at uni or just having the one there when she wasn't working. A not completely happy family cause I know there is going to be some drama in the next month or so between my other sister and mother, which I will talk about tomorrow if the internet is connected.

TTFN Smilers xx